| So 2009 Recap... |
[Dec. 12th, 2009|12:08 am] |
2009 sucked in comparison to 2008.
I am hoping 2010 will be better. I think I am starting the year off with a Jimmy Eat World concert so that should ring in the New Year the right way.
I don't know how else to describe this year. All the issues started in late 2008, and mostly because of one person. I am not giving specifics, but it is someone who I thought I was becoming friends with and it turns out we became enemies. Maybe she felt threatened by me, but I don't know why she would. I hate people who get pleasure out of other people's pain. I feel that 2010 is going to be a new start for me though. There are some things in the works that make me feel like this year will be better than the last.
Maybe I'll do a better recap when I have more time toward the end of the year.
Things should've been different.
Back to my massive amounts of end of the semester projects.
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| because i have been neglecting this |
[Mar. 5th, 2009|11:52 pm] |
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| | "The Fear" by Lily Allen | ] |
i thought i would post.
i have betrayed you livejournal. i now blog on tumblr and not here. i use this for your awesome communities that i am a part of and some other journals that i read. the one thing i do like about this website over tumblr is the commenting. you can't comment on there unless you install another sites commenting system. i don't have the patience for it atm so i am commentless.
i just watched The Police live on PBS. it was awesome and made me smile.
i need a boyfriend. i am just going to admit it already. oh well, i don't have time for one. that is life for me. lol
that's about it for now.
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[Feb. 22nd, 2009|05:00 pm] |
i love my life.
not really much to say other than that.
oh and i heart rock 'n roll.
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| hi there 2009 |
[Jan. 18th, 2009|10:46 pm] |
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| | my myspace playlist | ] |
first entry of the new year. i have a good feeling about this year.
so far i have gone to two concerts, almost three. both were fun, but not epic or anything too interesting i guess. i started college again on the 12th. this week hasn't been the best week ever though. i am hoping this coming week will be better.
tomorrow i think i am going to organize my room a bit. it is a wreck, but i need to clean it so i can get organized and so i can get a new laptop. my ever generous mom made a deal with me. if i organize my room, she'll pay for half of my new laptop. she is only saying this because my room is a wreck, not just a tiny mess or anything. mostly it is a bunch of clothes that need to be put away or given away and a bunch of school papers and books and school stuff all over my floor. even though that sounds not that bad, you would need to see my room to full grasp the magnitude of the mess.
i have already gotten sick this year. i started of the new year with a bang. i was sick from about the 3rd to like now. i am still a little sick, but i should be all better soon.
i have been neglecting the internet lately. sorry everyone! i just don't have the time or the energy to deal with my laptop which is dying and some of the drama that goes along with being active on here. =/
that's all i really have to talk about atm. i wish i had something more to say, but i don't. so til next time, have fun!
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| goodbye 2008. |
[Dec. 31st, 2008|09:58 pm] |
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| | "Decode" by Paramore | ] |
ah, well, this year has been an amazing whirlwind, some of which i would've never expected to happen.
i want to give highlights from 2008, but i really don't even know where to begin. this year has been so amazing for me that the lows i have had seem insignificant to the point where i can't even remember them. i would probably have to say that my lowest low of this year would either have to be right now, being stuck at home on new year's 2009, or when i had my wisdom teeth removed right before warped tour making it impossible for me to go this year.
highlights 2008 in sort of a list form:
- all the wonderful people i have met this year and became friends with starting at the beginning of the year til now.
- the people i am now friends with that i knew before this year.
- hanging out with a band that i thought i would never in my wildest dreams thought i would ever hang out with and get to know.
- going to California for the first time ever with my concert buddy for an amazing concert going time.
- traveling all the other places i have traveled to this year that i have never been to before.
- going to NYC for new year's eve 2008.
- all of April 2008 was pretty epic.
- same goes for August 2008.
i think that about covers the highlights in a very, very short version of the stories involved.
i have certain goals for this year. some of which will be difficult, but i need to do these things for myself. as previous entries have stated here and on my other journal, things happen for a reason and change is inevitable.
goals for 2009:
1) Become somewhat financially independent.
2) Get on the road to my career.
3) Become better friends with the friends I have.
4) Eat healthier and maybe work out a little.
5) Clean my room.
the first one is in bold font because it is the most important for the rest of the goals to work out. well mainly the first three at least. the first one has to somewhat happen though because i am turning 22 this year so i need to branch out a bit more on my own. on top of this, my mom is probably going on disability soon because of having MS. since she makes most of the family income, the family income will significantly decrease when she goes on disability. on top of that, i will no longer have health and dental insurance through her job anymore. to most people my age they would not worry about whether or not they are going to have health/dental insurance, but i am not most people my age. i always seem to have medical problems/emergencies so i feel i need something to protect me. and once again, i am back to my main goal of being financially indenpendent to make all of this happen.
/end word vomit
so i guess this was a recap of the year. i would say it was a pretty good year in music, a pretty good year for movies, a pretty good year in tours, and a pretty good year for myself. i am hoping for bigger and better things in 2009. even though i am not coming into the new year with a bang like last year, i still have a good feeling about it.
officially, my favorites of this year:
favorite album of 2008 - The All-American Rejects - When The World Comes Down (i had been looking forward to this album for a while)
favorite song of 2008 - it is between two songs that were released in 2007, but had a lot of play with my this year - "Let the Flames Begin" by Paramore and "Here It Goes" by Jimmy Eat World. though i particularly liked Paramore's release of "Decode" for the Twilight film.
favorite movie of 2008 - unexpectedly, Kung Fu Panda was a favorite of mine this year. i am not really remembering much else atm. even though i love movies, i have not been able to see too many lately.
favorite book of 2008 - the whole Twilight series
favorite TV show of 2008 - Grey's Anatomy
things i am looking forward to in 2009:
- Paramore's new album due out in the summer
- the next Harry Potter movie due out in the summer as well
- Warped Tour
- Bamboozle
- possibly Bamboozle Left
- any tours that have good line ups
- and the future i am meeting head on...
hello 2009. |
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[Dec. 19th, 2008|02:25 pm] |
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| | "27" - Fall Out Boy | ] |
if home is where the heart is, then we're all just fucked. |
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| ok i am a tad annoyed tbh |
[Dec. 4th, 2008|04:14 pm] |
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I am not naming names because I don't like to do that, but all I have to say is that you are not that famous, get over yourselves and actually act like normal people. People more famous than you are better at communication than you. I just think it's sad.
Anyway, tomorrow is the last day of regular classes for the semester and then I have finals next week. One on Monday, two on Tuesday, and one on Wednesday. They shouldn't be too bad. Need to start studying tonight because I know I won't get much studying done on Friday and Sunday.
Also, this may be the end to this username as far as journal posts are concerned. I have been thinking about creating a new one for a little while now. I don't think I will delete this one, and even though I am lazy, I don't think I want to spend $15 on a rename token. That is just a waste of money no matter how lazy I am. So I'll keep this one and just create the new one with a link from this one to there, and I'll add my friends from this one to that one. It is a little bit of a process, but it is worth it imo.
So I will probably have a closing entry to this account and then a link entry to the new one when I get it in place. I want to do this before the new year if possible.
I needed this entry to vent a little bit if you couldn't tell. lol
Ok, well that is it for now. I'll get back to y'all later.
Thanks for reading.
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| i really like tea |
[Nov. 17th, 2008|11:26 pm] |
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my dad is bitching to me again about practically everything in my life.
i don't think whatever i do will ever be enough so i officially give up.
though that cannot be an option because he will sick bug the shit out of me whether i give up or not. ugh.
just made my college schedule for next semester even though i really am contemplating not going back next semester. i need time to live and do stuff and make money. going to college is sort of holding me back in a way in the industry i want to be in.
idk. i am confused lately when it comes to the future because i have so many people pulling me in different directions trying to tell me what's right for me, when i know what's right for me, but they don't agree. it sucks having barely anyone on your side when making decisions like this. not that i need a support system or anything, but it would help if i didn't have a shit ton of resistance to fight against all the time.
i bought a pretty purple shirt today. i love it. maybe i'll take a picture with it and post it here. tomorrow i am going to buy a few more things. one of them being a stupid white shirt of some sort for my job which is requiring us to wear it when we work on black friday or saturday. ugh. i hate white because it gets dirty too easily. but i am glad about shopping tomorrow for a few things that i think look cool. hopefully i am not proved wrong when i try them on tomorrow.
i think it is time for bed. maybe i'll blog again soon. i like it.
i have tyga in my head from work. his song "AIM" i think it is called. ugh.
good night to anyone who reads my blog.
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[Nov. 8th, 2008|09:10 pm] |
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| | "Dropped" by Phantom Planet | ] |
how can i decide what's right
when you're clouding up my mind
can't win your losing fight
all the time
we will never ever know
'cause our love was always a secret
two conflicts at once. who do you choose when your heart won't let you.
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| Life is ok... |
[Nov. 3rd, 2008|09:28 pm] |
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| | the tune in my head and the beat in my chest | ] |
could be better, but could be much worse.
just living, and hoping for the best.
i am living for the road atm. i really need a vacation from home.
i miss 10/24 - 27/08.
that was a good four days.
i am sick atm and it sucks. hopefully i am better soon.
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| I am hungry... |
[Oct. 2nd, 2008|10:53 am] |
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like the physical hunger and a bit of a hunger for something better than this.
right now, life is just ok. my parents are driving me up the wall lately.
i wish i could move out or get a job where i am not home most of the time. it would make my life a lot less stressful.
back to the original hunger. i think i am going to go to wendy's or something, but i don't want to lose my parking spot and not get another one in time for class and have to park out in the middle of nowhere. siberia as we like to call it here. so i may update some other stuff and log off to venture to wendy's.
i think this update is done for now. i may post a better post later tonight when i am bored.
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| i can't seem to shake this awful feeling... |
[Sep. 6th, 2008|11:52 am] |
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| | The Starting Line is stuck in my head atm | ] |
^^^that song is on the American Eagle DVD playlist and i love seeing it when i am there. i miss those boys.
i recently came down with bad allergies to something in the air (pollen i guess) and then because of it i got a sinus infection. isn't that an awesome way to start of the new college year? yea i thought so too.
so let's see, i got my first real paycheck yesterday and it made me happy to have money again. i bought that hoodie i wanted to buy, but i didn't buy it til last night. i love it.
today, before work, i am going to buy a pair of jeans for $10 that usually cost $50 because of an awesome employee incentive discount. that is the one good thing about working at a retail store where you like the clothes, you can buy some too for cheap. lol
i am working some more on music with my friend, but it is a slow process because we are 3 hours away from each other so everything is sent via the internet. you would think that would make it easier, but it doesn't. we would rather work one-on-one and bounce ideas off of each other and not via the impersonal internet, but hey we are working with what we have.
that is about it for now. oh, i haven't done a single thing of homework yet for college and it is the start of the third week on monday. who wants to take bets that i'll pass all of my classes?
lol
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| i didn't update this once all summer... |
[Sep. 4th, 2008|11:04 am] |
i have a new one i update more often.
this one has gone by the wayside.
i am feeling like crap atm.
i am at college and i don't want to be.
it is so boring and not what i want or need to be doing tbh.
i am hungry too, but i want to buy a hoodie so i guess i'll starve until i get that later and know how much money i have or i'll just wait til i am home to eat. FREE FOOD!
i have been writing more lyrics lately.
that makes me happy.
since i last updated, i have had a pretty boring summer up until about a week and a half ago.
i went to FL for the first time ever in June for my aunt's wedding and i went to Seaworld and Aquatica (Seaworld's newly opened waterpark). then i chilled and tried to get a job. finally got a solid one at American Eagle in August. at the end of July i got my wisdom teeth removed and that sucked hardcore. that has been pretty much my summer. i went to like three concerts and then four paramore concerts on the last riot tour. boy did that end with a bang this time. so much fun and so many good times. can't wait to see some of them again soon.
that is about all.
i still have another hour and 20 minutes about til my next class.
i want to do something, but i can't leave the campus because i will never get a parking space when i get back. stupid college.
comment if you want, no requirement to, but it would be nice.
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| motivation needed |
[May. 19th, 2008|04:44 pm] |
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| | LTFB live | ] |
lazy, sits at home most of the time.
goes out and drinks with friends then remembers why she doesn't drink that much anymore.
needs to clean her room.
also needs to get a job, but has to wait until after she comes back from FL.
spends a lot of time on the internet.
gets injured easily, very clumsy.
has low self-esteem most of the time because she never feels good enough.
likes her hair color at the moment, but changes it often.
gets mistaked for someone who will not be named here all the time now (even her family mistakes her for this other girl) and is getting sick of it.
is friends with a lot of people in bands and gets hated on because of it.
is in a crappy band who doesn't have the same musical taste as her, but deals with it as it is the only deal in town.
lives in the middle of nowhere.
goes to a lot of concerts.
if you fit this description, comment this LJ entry with questions.
motivation needed. |
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| everyone should love my new icon... |
[May. 10th, 2008|10:22 am] |
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| | Sing It Loud "Come Around (Acoustic)" | ] |
because i know i do. lol
anyway, i am at work once again. i think i always write on this thing on the weekends when i am super bored at work.
i need a new job soon which i will be getting soon.
i need to find out if this internship is paid or not... probably not... so any suggestions for a part time job?
so recap of this past week in one word, EPIC!
but really, i feel so privledged at the moment to have experienced all i have in the past week. pretty much perfect, save one aspect, but i guess i'll get over it. even though, that may be the most important aspect. oh well, i can't go back in time. if i could, i woud learn to open my mouth and speak more even if it makes me look like a complete idiot.
tbh i didn't want this tour to end like ever... the line-up was so perfect. mostly because all the bands were so genuine. it was just awesome to be in their presence and hang out with all of them and become friends. the bands and their crews alike.
i really can't wait til i am finally in the music industry which is going to happen soon. first i will start off with this internship and then once i know some more people maybe i can finally make a band and do something with that. that is my real dream, to be a recording artist, to go on tour, to play music that hopefully others will love, and just interact with tons of people, but for right now, just having an internship at a major record label is a step in the right direction for me.
have any questions yet?
you probably do since i am sort of writing ambiguously... just ask if you really want to know.
i am not mean and i won't bite your head off, but i don't want drama.
so i am out.
save da drama fo' yo mama.
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| i always say the same thing... |
[Apr. 27th, 2008|03:53 pm] |
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that i am going to start updating more often and then i don't follow through. lol anyway since i last wrote/typed in here a lot of cool, good things have happened in my life.
i went to CA like my last entry said i was doing and had a ton of fun.
it was like one big party.
and now... wow... 4/24/08 was the start of something good.
that whole day was absolutely EPIC!
i would love to type all that happened, but i have recently come to find out that people hate me more when i tell them what goes on in my life on here. so the people that wanted to know, know what happened, and that is probably the way it will stay because, even though, i want to tell like the whole world what happened recently, people think i am dilusional and make up shit. i can't be bothered with people who don't believe me. if you really want the story, and won't go telling the whole world about it and talking shit behind my back, then message me and i'll at least give you highlights.
but now like this whole week coming up is going to be absolutely EPIC as well.
i think CA was the catalyst for all this that is happening now.
so i am 9 credits away from my associates degree if i get accepted into the individual studies major. if not i am screwed, but i have faith that i will get into that program. that means i can graduate after the Fall 08 semester. and that means that i can finally get on with some stuff i want to do with my life.
next is a job search as i am not going to be able to stay at my current job much longer no matter how much it pays. i am sick of some of these people. and i fear i may go insane if i stay here much longer.
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| ok so i am so excited for CA... |
[Mar. 16th, 2008|10:45 am] |
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it is looking like it is going to be the trip of a lifetime.
my friend and i leave on April 4th early in the AM and then once we land we check into our hotel and change to go to Jimmy Kimmel Mini Outdoor concert. guess who's playing? hahaha... if you know me then you know who i am talking about. after that we might get to hang out with them if we find Aaron or Will. then we are probably going to get something to eat and go back to the hotel room to try to sleep as Saturday will be a looooooong day.
then on the 5th we will wake up sort of early, but not too early and head over to Boozle Left. that is going to be an awesome day. we get to see Paramore, Jimmy Eat World, The All-American Rejects, The Starting Line, New Found Glory, Bayside, Daphne Loves Derby, Valencia, We the Kings, Every Avenue, Hit the Lights, The Audition, and The Cab all in the same day. probably a bunch of others to, but the main ones being the first four on that list. and we get to chill with our buddy Aaron the rest of the time. then probably major hangs afterward. so much fun. AWESOME!
then on the 6th we will again wake up sort of early, but not too early and go up to Bakersfield which is 2 hours away for the Paramore/Jimmy Eat World tour. probably get some food, then find Aaron and chill again. that is how we roll. lol... and then go see part of my dream show. it will be amazing. and then hang out with peeps and head back to LA.
then on the 7th we will probably go to the beach and shop a bit. who knows what will happen this day? lol. our plane leaves at like 4 pm so we will have time to do that. then head home to lovely NY and PA. this trip is going to be amazing. i love that i am turning 21 right before it and i love that this is my birthday present and i love that my concert buddy is going with me. "we make a great team." lol.
if any of you live in CA, let's meet up or something. we will be around. lol.
other than that i am bored at work right now and thinking about all the things i have to do before this trip and for this trip. OH and My American Heart on Tuesday is going to be fun. that is the party before my birthday. fun times fun times. i love my life right now.
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| Just felt like writing an update... |
[Dec. 14th, 2007|12:05 am] |
So my life has had a ton of ups and downs this year.
But at the moment the ups are out-weighing the downs by a lot.
I am writing to you less than 24 hours after my four surgery in 3 years too.
This would be included in one of my downs at the moment, but it'll lead to an up of me being able to sing properly again. My tonsils and adnoids have been wreaking havoc on my vocal cords for so long it'll be nice to be able to sing and not get a sore throat after like 20 minutes of singing or having sinius infections constantly.
I think I will do a recap of the ups and downs tomorrow while I am sitting here bored not being able to talk. Lots to talk about and hopefully on here there won't be as much drama as other places I have posted information about events and people in my life.
Well, I hope you enjoyed this little update. I know I did. I like writing and I started to forget that with all the effin' college work I have. That is why I am not made for college. More about that in the next post.
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| New post, new day. |
[Oct. 5th, 2007|10:58 pm] |
I decided to refresh my life by cleaning my room. It's an on going process. Such is life.
I listened to all of the Paramore tracks I have on my laptop which I found to be a lot when I actually went through them all and put them on a playlist. Yes, that was a bit of a run-on sentence, but whatever.
I'm in the process of making a scarf and four hats for some special people. Hopefully, I'll finish them soon so I'll be able to give them these gifts.
I need to study more for college. I just have better things to do with my time. College is not going to give me the experience that the real world could with the career path I want to take. I'm mostly there for my parents. At least they are finally starting to realize that I'm serious about being in the music industry.
Well I'll keep it short and sweet tonight. I need to get some sleep. I have to go to work tomorrow. boooooooooo. I need the money though.
Good night!
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| I should post here more often then I do |
[Sep. 5th, 2007|11:14 pm] |
For the longest time, I just used this to reply to people on various communities on here, but I have the sudden urge to start posting a little more regularly.
Although, i don't have much to say this time around, maybe next time I'll post of some epic summer tales. Yea, because I don't feel like typing them right now. Oh, and, most likely, Paramore related. lol.
By the way, the All-American Rejects debut a new song last week at their concerts called "Mona Lisa." It's only acoustic as of now, but I hope they put a little more production into it when they go into the studio to record. It's a little too country for me at the moment, but I still love them to pieces and think they are a wonderful band. What? I don't have to like every song ever made by them. lol.
Well that's it for now. I'm tired and need to get ready for my long day tomorrow before I go to bed.
Good night.
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