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So 2009 Recap... [Dec. 12th, 2009|12:08 am]
Can't keep safe what wants to break
[Current Mood |busybusy]
[Current Music |Jimmy Eat World - The Middle | Powered by Last.fm]

2009 sucked in comparison to 2008.

I am hoping 2010 will be better. I think I am starting the year off with a Jimmy Eat World concert so that should ring in the New Year the right way.

I don't know how else to describe this year. All the issues started in late 2008, and mostly because of one person. I am not giving specifics, but it is someone who I thought I was becoming friends with and it turns out we became enemies. Maybe she felt threatened by me, but I don't know why she would. I hate people who get pleasure out of other people's pain. I feel that 2010 is going to be a new start for me though. There are some things in the works that make me feel like this year will be better than the last.

Maybe I'll do a better recap when I have more time toward the end of the year.

Things should've been different.

Back to my massive amounts of end of the semester projects.

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because i have been neglecting this [Mar. 5th, 2009|11:52 pm]
Can't keep safe what wants to break
[Current Mood |pessimisticpessimistic]
[Current Music |"The Fear" by Lily Allen]

i thought i would post.

i have betrayed you livejournal. i now blog on tumblr and not here. i use this for your awesome communities that i am a part of and some other journals that i read. the one thing i do like about this website over tumblr is the commenting. you can't comment on there unless you install another sites commenting system. i don't have the patience for it atm so i am commentless.

i just watched The Police live on PBS. it was awesome and made me smile.

i need a boyfriend. i am just going to admit it already. oh well, i don't have time for one. that is life for me. lol

that's about it for now.

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(no subject) [Feb. 22nd, 2009|05:00 pm]
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[Current Mood |accomplishedaccomplished]
[Current Music |Jimmy Eat World - Here It Goes | Powered by Last.fm]

i love my life.

not really much to say other than that.

oh and i heart rock 'n roll.

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hi there 2009 [Jan. 18th, 2009|10:46 pm]
Can't keep safe what wants to break
[Current Mood |sleepysleepy]
[Current Music |my myspace playlist]

first entry of the new year. i have a good feeling about this year.

so far i have gone to two concerts, almost three. both were fun, but not epic or anything too interesting i guess. i started college again on the 12th. this week hasn't been the best week ever though. i am hoping this coming week will be better.

tomorrow i think i am going to organize my room a bit. it is a wreck, but i need to clean it so i can get organized and so i can get a new laptop. my ever generous mom made a deal with me. if i organize my room, she'll pay for half of my new laptop. she is only saying this because my room is a wreck, not just a tiny mess or anything. mostly it is a bunch of clothes that need to be put away or given away and a bunch of school papers and books and school stuff all over my floor. even though that sounds not that bad, you would need to see my room to full grasp the magnitude of the mess.

i have already gotten sick this year. i started of the new year with a bang. i was sick from about the 3rd to like now. i am still a little sick, but i should be all better soon.

i have been neglecting the internet lately. sorry everyone! i just don't have the time or the energy to deal with my laptop which is dying and some of the drama that goes along with being active on here. =/

that's all i really have to talk about atm. i wish i had something more to say, but i don't. so til next time, have fun!

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goodbye 2008. [Dec. 31st, 2008|09:58 pm]
Can't keep safe what wants to break
[Current Mood |contemplativecontemplative]
[Current Music |"Decode" by Paramore]

ah, well, this year has been an amazing whirlwind, some of which i would've never expected to happen.

i want to give highlights from 2008, but i really don't even know where to begin. this year has been so amazing for me that the lows i have had seem insignificant to the point where i can't even remember them. i would probably have to say that my lowest low of this year would either have to be right now, being stuck at home on new year's 2009, or when i had my wisdom teeth removed right before warped tour making it impossible for me to go this year.

highlights 2008 in sort of a list form:

- all the wonderful people i have met this year and became friends with starting at the beginning of the year til now.

- the people i am now friends with that i knew before this year.

- hanging out with a band that i thought i would never in my wildest dreams thought i would ever hang out with and get to know.

- going to California for the first time ever with my concert buddy for an amazing concert going time.

- traveling all the other places i have traveled to this year that i have never been to before.

- going to NYC for new year's eve 2008.

- all of April 2008 was pretty epic.

- same goes for August 2008.

i think that about covers the highlights in a very, very short version of the stories involved.

i have certain goals for this year. some of which will be difficult, but i need to do these things for myself. as previous entries have stated here and on my other journal, things happen for a reason and change is inevitable.

goals for 2009:
1) Become somewhat financially independent.
2) Get on the road to my career.
3) Become better friends with the friends I have.
4) Eat healthier and maybe work out a little.
5) Clean my room.

the first one is in bold font because it is the most important for the rest of the goals to work out. well mainly the first three at least. the first one has to somewhat happen though because i am turning 22 this year so i need to branch out a bit more on my own. on top of this, my mom is probably going on disability soon because of having MS. since she makes most of the family income, the family income will significantly decrease when she goes on disability. on top of that, i will no longer have health and dental insurance through her job anymore. to most people my age they would not worry about whether or not they are going to have health/dental insurance, but i am not most people my age. i always seem to have medical problems/emergencies so i feel i need something to protect me. and once again, i am back to my main goal of being financially indenpendent to make all of this happen.

/end word vomit

so i guess this was a recap of the year. i would say it was a pretty good year in music, a pretty good year for movies, a pretty good year in tours, and a pretty good year for myself. i am hoping for bigger and better things in 2009. even though i am not coming into the new year with a bang like last year, i still have a good feeling about it.

officially, my favorites of this year:

favorite album of 2008 - The All-American Rejects - When The World Comes Down (i had been looking forward to this album for a while)

favorite song of 2008 - it is between two songs that were released in 2007, but had a lot of play with my this year - "Let the Flames Begin" by Paramore and "Here It Goes" by Jimmy Eat World. though i particularly liked Paramore's release of "Decode" for the Twilight film.

favorite movie of 2008 - unexpectedly, Kung Fu Panda was a favorite of mine this year. i am not really remembering much else atm. even though i love movies, i have not been able to see too many lately.

favorite book of 2008 - the whole Twilight series

favorite TV show of 2008 - Grey's Anatomy


things i am looking forward to in 2009:

- Paramore's new album due out in the summer
- the next Harry Potter movie due out in the summer as well
- Warped Tour
- Bamboozle
- possibly Bamboozle Left
- any tours that have good line ups
- and the future i am meeting head on...

hello 2009.
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(no subject) [Dec. 19th, 2008|02:25 pm]
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[Current Mood |aggravatedaggravated]
[Current Music |"27" - Fall Out Boy]

if home is where the heart is, then we're all just fucked.
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ok i am a tad annoyed tbh [Dec. 4th, 2008|04:14 pm]
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[Current Mood |annoyedannoyed]

I am not naming names because I don't like to do that, but all I have to say is that you are not that famous, get over yourselves and actually act like normal people. People more famous than you are better at communication than you. I just think it's sad.

Anyway, tomorrow is the last day of regular classes for the semester and then I have finals next week. One on Monday, two on Tuesday, and one on Wednesday. They shouldn't be too bad. Need to start studying tonight because I know I won't get much studying done on Friday and Sunday.

Also, this may be the end to this username as far as journal posts are concerned. I have been thinking about creating a new one for a little while now. I don't think I will delete this one, and even though I am lazy, I don't think I want to spend $15 on a rename token. That is just a waste of money no matter how lazy I am. So I'll keep this one and just create the new one with a link from this one to there, and I'll add my friends from this one to that one. It is a little bit of a process, but it is worth it imo.

So I will probably have a closing entry to this account and then a link entry to the new one when I get it in place. I want to do this before the new year if possible.

I needed this entry to vent a little bit if you couldn't tell. lol

Ok, well that is it for now. I'll get back to y'all later.
Thanks for reading.

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i really like tea [Nov. 17th, 2008|11:26 pm]
Can't keep safe what wants to break
[Current Mood |contemplativecontemplative]

my dad is bitching to me again about practically everything in my life.
i don't think whatever i do will ever be enough so i officially give up.
though that cannot be an option because he will sick bug the shit out of me whether i give up or not. ugh.

just made my college schedule for next semester even though i really am contemplating not going back next semester. i need time to live and do stuff and make money. going to college is sort of holding me back in a way in the industry i want to be in.

idk. i am confused lately when it comes to the future because i have so many people pulling me in different directions trying to tell me what's right for me, when i know what's right for me, but they don't agree. it sucks having barely anyone on your side when making decisions like this. not that i need a support system or anything, but it would help if i didn't have a shit ton of resistance to fight against all the time.

i bought a pretty purple shirt today. i love it. maybe i'll take a picture with it and post it here. tomorrow i am going to buy a few more things. one of them being a stupid white shirt of some sort for my job which is requiring us to wear it when we work on black friday or saturday. ugh. i hate white because it gets dirty too easily. but i am glad about shopping tomorrow for a few things that i think look cool. hopefully i am not proved wrong when i try them on tomorrow.

i think it is time for bed. maybe i'll blog again soon. i like it.

i have tyga in my head from work. his song "AIM" i think it is called. ugh.

good night to anyone who reads my blog.

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(no subject) [Nov. 8th, 2008|09:10 pm]
Can't keep safe what wants to break
[Current Mood |confusedconfused]
[Current Music |"Dropped" by Phantom Planet]

how can i decide what's right
when you're clouding up my mind
can't win your losing fight
all the time






we will never ever know
'cause our love was always a secret




two conflicts at once. who do you choose when your heart won't let you.
logic says go the easy way out, but idk if i can because neither one is really all that easy.
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Life is ok... [Nov. 3rd, 2008|09:28 pm]
Can't keep safe what wants to break
[Current Mood |sicksick]
[Current Music |the tune in my head and the beat in my chest]

could be better, but could be much worse.

just living, and hoping for the best.

i am living for the road atm. i really need a vacation from home.

i miss 10/24 - 27/08.
that was a good four days.

i am sick atm and it sucks. hopefully i am better soon.

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